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and although I usually stand by the I-do-as-I-please lifestyle, sometimes it seems easier to distance myself from another risk that could be monumental. it sounds cowardly, but I can assure you I am no coward. I trust myself, but truly trusting another with my self is extremely difficult, especially when factoring in blind optimism. it's been so long since he and I have spoken, it feels like a silly dream. every attempt he has made to communicate has seemed unreal because he fucked up, and I don't know whether or not I'm still angry about it, so then I fucked up. then he fucked up again. then I fucked up again...and then he did again. you can only leave a person with self esteem hanging for so long until they start to feel unwanted, and when that feeling finally sinks in, convincing themself they no longer want the other person (or at least attempting to convince themself) seems like the only option. it is possible to play it "too cool", and when trust has been broken, intentions need to be stated upfront. I may not be your M, but I am an M, and that is how I feel about my own situation. if anyone gives a shit about their M, my suggestion is to show your cards. we all know how Ms can be. |